Extract No. 4

We think with our limitations. I speak for myself but assume you are not unlike me. There are no absolutes--nothing that can really separate me from you. I think we know this and it bothers us. If we still try to find absolutes with our pessimism, we find we can reduce everything we have ever done to either prostitution or masturbation. Even rape can find a place in the two. But of course this is only for the sake of our pessimism. Prostitution and masturbation are hardly mutually exclusive. Also we are still talking about things we do and not about what we are. We are not prostitutes because we prostitute or masturbators because we masturbate.

When engaging with certain portions of the universe, like when engaging with its vastness, solipsism becomes essential. I have always felt that. The premise that brought me to that conclusion when I was seven was not really the same as when I was dead and twenty seven. Twenty years ago, I felt real people were too hairy to be really real.

Now that I am dead, I must revert to solipsism because non-existence does not make sense. It cannot. The explanation for the non-existent must be non-existent.